My Future?

At right about this time in high school, I should be thinking about my future and what I want to be. I should be having thoughts on what jobs I want to have, what fields I want take my path towards, and I should by now have ALREADY nailed what I want to major in. But right now…I’m not even close to knowing how to answer even one of these questions.

I get really disappointed when we have to fill in questionnaires asking us what we want to major in and what we want to do when we grow up. It disappoints me that some people have their mind made up as kids on what they want to be and I’m here ready to take college classes, not knowing what I want to do. A point to where it got depressing was last year in which the whole school dressed up in business-like clothing as if we were to attend a business meeting. The whole day was dedicated to the topic of our future and what we want to do when we grow up. We started off the day with name tags and what we had to do was write our names on the sticker and next to it, what we wanted to do when we grew up. Next to my name was a question mark.

Sometimes, I just sit down in bed and think, what do I want to do? What am I good at? What do I like to do? It hasn’t really been a problem answering these questions but putting them together and finding out what I want to do in my life have always been a problem. When the question arises “What are you going to be when I grow up”, my mind goes completely blank.

I don’t necessarily have a mindset that is telling me that I am going to be a failure when I grow up. A lot of people have told me that I have a lot of potential to do great things and succeed in life. But finding that occupation that is going to lead to these great things and success at the moment is becoming hard to find…

"What I Want To Be When I Grow Up" - Response

Going through Google Reader, I was able to find a quote from Ruby Rew’s blog post about her ambitions to learn and teach art:

“I was asked once, “Would you rather be poor with the job you love, or be rich with a job you hate?” It was something I had a hard time deciding, and to this day I still don't have my answer. With a job you love, you have the motivation to wake up in the morning and get to work. You don't stress too much on how much money you make because you have an intense devotion to what you're doing with your life. But with a job you loathe, what drives you to keep doing it? Everyday of you wake up and hate your life. Nobody ever sees you happy because...well, you aren't happy! Yeah, your bills are paid, but what then?”

Like Ruby, this question always arises on my mind. Do I want a job that I’ll love going to but make not too much money out of it? Or do I want a job that brings the money home but develop stress in the process of doing so? So what would I do?

The answer would be pretty easy for me and that would be to get a job that I enjoy going to and love what I am doing. Going to a job I don’t like is really stressful knowing you hate what you’ll be doing that day. Eventually this can get really depressing and some people even commit suicide which is really sad.

A job is a HUGE part of someone’s life and most of our time is going to be at this job. Choosing a job making a lot of money will allow me to buy more stuff to make me happy but being at the job itself wouldn’t be worthwhile and is where I’ll be most of the time and maybe life. So even though the job will bring in money which I can use to buy stuff or go on vacations, it’s the jobs that determine the outcomes of our day.